I didn’t remember what it felt like not to be overweight, and I was miserable. Life was unbearable. I had zero confidence, avoided mirrors and feared what people thought of me. Walking was an effort, shopping for clothes was a nightmare… everything was a struggle. The only way to soothe and numb it all was to comfort eat and move less. It got out of control. I knew inside I was someone else, totally trapped inside.

I was in Japan with family and we were climbing a hill with steps. I struggled so much I had to turn back and missed seeing the view from the top. I waited at the bottom, with shame. It was that moment I promised myself I would never be in that situation again, and I would ALWAYS be able to finish a climb. I was ready to take action and change my life. All of it.

So many! I had never done any exercise in my life. What if I can’t do it? What if I’m the biggest? What will I eat? Will I be hungry? What will the people be like? What will I wear? There were so many others.

When I first saw the menu I was relieved. There was huge variety and I was free to choose what I wanted, so long as it was within my daily kcal allowance. Building an awareness of my intake was a huge lesson for me. I kicked myself for being so unaware beforehand, and for my lack of knowledge. I learnt so much about what I was putting inside my body, and what my body actually needed.

There are so many different types of classes, there’s something for everyone… even people like me. Many of them were totally out of my reach when I first arrived, so I concentrated on the lower level classes. I worked on my mobility built up my techniques and understanding. My goal was to attend every class on the Schedule before I left, and I did.

The highs were doing things I never dreamt I would be able to do. Touching my toes, balancing on a Pilates ball on one leg, Muay Thai boxing, running, skipping. Remembering what it felt like to be proud again. Stepping on the scales and seeing results. My clothes becoming too big. Feeling what it was like to smile again. The biggest high was realizing that ‘yes Rosie, I can!’

At times I wanted to give up. Often I wanted to cry. At times I had worked hard all week and the numbers on the scales disappointed me. My body ached at times. On occasions I didn’t stick to my calorie intake. I needed to rebel a little. But, I still wrote it down on my daily food diary – no more secrets. I just reminded myself that tomorrow is another day.

The Phuket Fit team have helped me change my life. Their support, knowledge, advice, motivation, patience and understanding was priceless. I felt safe, cared for, and in the best hands I could have wished for. What I have learnt will stay with me for the rest of my ‘new’ life.

If you are still reading this and have got this far, do not wait a minute longer. The quicker you start, the quicker you’ll be on your way to setting yourself free and changing. You CAN do it, and it feels amazing on the other side.

Quite simply, my number one goal is to continue being healthy and happy. What more do I need?
I know you’re all looking for the ‘numbers’ because that’s what I would do! So here they are. Since starting my weight loss journey I have lost 43kg. I’m still going. I thank Phuket Fit for contributing to the biggest gift I could have wished for.